A Renegade's Report

What an appropriate song for a cult.

This month marks three years since I left the IMT cult. Good riddance to all that rubbish! So much time was wasted on people who did me nothing but harm. But now, I have emerged from the darkness into the light, with Mahler and Beethoven and Nietzsche and Schubert and Dostoevsky and Tolstoy and many … Read more

I confess, the title is a bit clickbaity. As I have said before, some stuff is still being shared with me via Google Docs from my old branch. Most of it is garbage which I don’t have the time or patience to wade through. I did however come across this old document written by my … Read more

I am happy to announce that I have started lessons with a classical singing teacher through the Royal College of Music. I had my first lesson yesterday evening singing Gute Nacht from Schubert’s Winterreise. To start therapy and classical singing lessons in the same month has been a boon for my mental health, to say … Read more

Trotskyist cults are destiny-destroyers. At their most benign, they are destiny diverters, destiny derailers. Ultimately, I am convinced that the IMT has not been able to derail me completely from my ultimate destination. As Nietzsche, inspired by the Greek poet Pindar, once counselled, I am now on my way to becoming what I am – … Read more

Yesterday, I finished Ali Millar’s harrowing and brilliantly-written review of her time as an Jehovah’s Witness, The Last Days. I’ve wanted to read it ever since it came out in the summer, and I’m glad that I’ve finally got round to it. Reading about the experiences of other people who have been in cults has … Read more

For the New Year—I still live, I still think; I must still live, for I must still think. Sum, ergo cogito: cogito, ergo sum. To-day everyone takes the liberty of expressing his wish and his favorite thought: well, I also mean to tell what I have wished for myself today, and what thought first crossed my … Read more

This blog has been in existence for two years already. I can hardly believe it. It is as if only yesterday I was resigning from the IMT and breaking free of two and a half years of tyranny. I have already been out of the organisation longer than I was ever in it. And yet, … Read more

Though it was not literally true, as was facetiously charged against him by public unbelievers, that he called aloud to his fellow-creatures: “Curse your souls and bodies, come here and be blessed!” still his philanthropy was of that gunpowderous sort that the difference between it and animosity was hard to determine. You were to abolish … Read more